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2019-11-11 "addiction of myself" [長年日記]

I often see in the news that entertainment actors have recently been arrested for using drugs and stimulants.

I don't know if she/he is an entertainer so they are involved in an incident like this, or just that an entertainer is delicious as a news source.

When I was a university student, I was about to sell "Cannabis (Hashishi)" on the road of travel in China and India.

These were the last chance of a so-called "drag".

After all, "drag" for me is a cold or abdominal pain, a sleeping pill or a stabilizer.

I don't feel sorry about that, and I think I'm also very lucky.

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I heard that there is a typical thinking of addicted person.

"I have control over drugs, alcohol and tobacco. Therefore, I am not addicted. "

It is ironic that the idea of "I am not addicted" itself has become "a means of judging whether or not I am addicted".

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You can think about "your character" in the same way.

For example, the self-evaluation "I am a normal person" has no meaning in front of other people's evaluation "You are an abnormal person"

If there are three people who say "you are abnormal", it cannot be helped that you can accept the opinions.

Self-evaluation is only your own evaluation.

Such an evaluation is meaningless for our socially.

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Thinking like this,

After all, It may be said that we, everyone, have suffered from

"addiction of myself"