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2020-01-30 Otherwise, you will eventually be "killed by yourself." [長年日記]

It's not the project I wanted,

Someone let me a project leader

Suffering from delays everywhere,

Following up the mistakes of each department,

Making budget that is not accounted for,

Getting tired of working hard.

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Even if this project falls,

No big damage occurs.

Even if I know I won't be blamed,

Still, I will be overtaken to make something.

If you call this "anxiety", "anxiety" is the scariest, most painful and tragic disease.

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I've been telling others to run away.

However, some people cannot get peace of mind by running away.

It is me.

A person who can solve a problem only by solving the problem will not have peace of mind. I really get angry with my personality.

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Every day, problems occur, my heart hurts,

Every day, problems are resolved, my heart relief,

This is similar to a change in the environment where we travel daily between Antarctica and the equator. My body and mind are surely going to be destroyed.

About this situation

If I continue for a week, I go crazy,

If I continue for a month, I will have depression

If I continue for three months, I will dive on the rails of the train

I have certain conviction.

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"A person who can solve a problem only by solving the problem" should

always underestimate my abilities,

be modest to the humble (pretending)

push up others,

never in a responsible position

Otherwise, you will eventually be "killed by yourself."