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2018-01-11 "Pain" is beyond "Family Love" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

I hate "pain" "suffering".

My tolerance to "pain" "suffering" is very low.

Whatever the family left behind, whatever a person dealing with my corpse feels, I can sacrifice anything if I avoid "pain."

"Pain" is beyond "Family Love"

This was also evident in Nazi Germany's "Dirty Experiment".(Please search by yourself for this "Dirty Experiment").

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At present, I have parents who need care, for example, parents who can not move their bodies by themselves or parents who can not recognize themselves.

- they can not move their body by themselves,

- even if the pain they want to die is going to be continuous without interruption

- when it comes to a situation where they are not recognized from outside.

If they must continue to receive "the everlasting pain of intense pain"

I have never thought of so much "scary" before.

I am convinced that all people have the right to escape from unbearable pain, and indeed, I am one of the human who has the plan.

However, once I cannot move even my body at the situation, I also cannot prepare any suicide, for example, "jumping in" or "hanging".

Actually, I was not able to shout "voice of help" during this intense pain.

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I think that human being should have embedded a mechanism to avoid pains easily by nature.

Something like a mechanism that easily leads to death, ... let me see, it might be information that can be recongnized by himself/ herself, and for example, a simple method of

"Turn your little finger 90 degrees counterclockwise, get killed."

I think that such a mechanism might be embedded at the DNA level.

However, "suicide to avoid pain" contributes to the survival of species? - If asked, I think that it was impossible.

Basically selfish genes have two roles.

"Stay!" but "die after a certain period of time". They are not interested in such as "consideration for pain avoidance".

(To be continued)