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2016-04-05 "I concentrate "I don't concentrate one thing for my life"" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

"To concentrate one thing with whole heart = Right, Beautiful and respectable"

The thought is, I agree, a great sense of worth, however,

I am getting annoyed when it is spoken as a single correct answer.

As for me, I could not concentrate one thing in my youth, so I had experimented a lot of things, and they have been accumulated as a big mountain. After all, they become my column's platform.

But I am wondering whether it was good or not now.

What is right, beautiful and respectable ? Nobody knows them anytime, anywhere, after all.

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Now I have been doing a lot of things now, and I am broadcasting ambiguous results (of diet, power, atomic energy, copyright and electronic oven).

In addition, a lot of people gave me their advice of "waste of my life" and "loss of my talent"

That's right.

I am afraid that I have not been able to concentrate one thing for my life, ever.

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So I am going to change the interpretation of sense of worth.

I make up my mind to fix my purpose of my life as follow.

"I concentrate "I don't concentrate one thing for my life""

I am not sure that the way of my life is going to

"make me happy"

and

"be appreciated as "good" by people"

So I will ask people expect for me, to estimate my sense of worth slowly after my death.