I came to often think about such a thing darkly.

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There are several books whose story has a theme of losing memory for short term as follows.

"The formula that The doctor has loved" by Ogawa Youko-san

"Okitegami Kyouko's memorandum" as a new serried by Nishio Ishin-san, recently,

"Flowers for Algernon" by the late Mr.Daniel Keyes

The above books are wonderful and I can recommend them.

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However, the books are books, even if I read a lot of same kinds of book.

If I had to live my life that is forced to eliminate my memory after several minutes, how can I feel the daily life?

- My family looks like tired of my same speaking repeat, so I feel fear to talking and am going to keep silent.

I am going to hesitate about any actions in my life, like that.

Above all, I think

- It should be terrible fearful to forget my action and other's saying in several minutes.

And,

- How sad that we cannot tell and leave my thought to others

That is unimaginable for me.

Anyway, nobody could be inevitable that my thought come to be fade away in a black box that cannot be opened.

Even if there are difference between slowness and rapidness, we are going to arrive at the same goal whose name is "death".

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So, now I am going to think that I have to modify my policy by myself.

(To be continued)

The other day, I watched the NHK non-fiction TV program "Pacific War in color" and be stunned by the program.

"The program tried to transform the films of Pacific War from monochrome into color", even if it is easy to say that,

I was really surprised to watching the program with coming to think that

"The life during the war was almost same as our life"

Expressed in another way, "I became scared"

Though I felt the war was just tragedy of another world,

"Any war is in daily life"

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Our horror "peace constitution (and its interpretation)" that stop going war on a short leash, becomes changing to remove their restriction by themselves in this complicated world affairs.

I think this trend of our society is both correct and wrong. Now I can set out argument of both sides, and I am confident to be argued off.

So my arguments become meaningless and chicken consistently, that is

"I want to keep saying that "I have been able to save our "peace constitution" during my life, at least"

(To be continued)

Nowaday I assist my senior daughter's interview simulation.

Ebata:" Next question is about your father. Would you explain about your father?"

Daughter:"My father can accomplish what he wants. For example, he had completed losing more than 10kg for two months, and he continues to open his diary on the Internet everyday for several month. He is like a "ROBOT" so called.

I stopped the simulation and took my glasses off with a sigh, and said to her.

Ebata:"You know, at the present, "like a "ROBOT"" is not a honor phrase"

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My wife sitting beside me, held back the laughter with keeping her head on the table.

Office business systems ask me to change my password every three months. with a blackmail of

"if not, your accounts will be deleted"

Correctly, the systems say just "your password will be expired soon", however this is the same story.

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On the other hand, this annoying and tired operation to change password, is likely to be more effective.

After my Twitter account was hijacked, I cleaned up my act of "any password will come to light".

As a matter of fact, with current computer performance, It is true that "a password of about one phrase can be torn by force".

However, because that 'forceful' takes time, so the strategy of changing passwords every three months is reasonable price at the cost of "annoying and tired operation".

(To be continued)

It is a story about 20 years ago.

There was a period when I worked with a junior female researcher.

I talked with her a lot. Especially, in the story of Miyuki Miyabe's book "Kasha", I remember being raised with strange tension.

She: "By the way, Ebata-san, do you know "BANANA FISH"?"

Ebata: "No, is the author a Japanese?"

She: "It's a Japanese comic, be sure to read"

After that, the talk about "BANANA FISH" was limited to that time.

And, I forgot it for a year.

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One day, at the secondhand bookstore, we purchased the first volume of used "BANANA FISH". And at the beginning, I was reading with not much emotion.

After that, I repeatedly purchase it acceleratingly, involving her wife, and "BANANA FISH" became a big boom of the Ebata family.

Now, these books have become eternal preservation comics of the Ebatas.

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I mentioned content harassment (Concara) in the past.

I realize that what is going to spread the content is not "advertisement" or "advertisement" but "personality" of the person who recommends the content.

With only one word of "BANANA FISH" only one time from my trustworthy partner, the Ebatas got valuable content.

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"BANANA FISH" is currently being aired on animation.

This animation has reproduced the original correctly with a conscientious work, so I can feel good.

However now I cannot restage of trembling in tremendous extraordinary life and feeling tears keep filling my eyes, when I read comics at the first time.

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I have already told you that

the evaluation of a work (content) may change, at that point of contact with the work,

their age, degree of their knowledge and preference, reading comprehension, era background, even by weather and season,

I think that this is a easy example.

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I hope that you who are reading this diary, will have a chance,

the most important book,

at the most important time,

will be recommended by the most important person,

at the bottom of my heart.

I feel that the accuracy of forecasts by the Japan Meteorological Agency is steadily increasing every year.

I think seriously, "It is great."

I think it is easier for transportation infrastructure and local governments to move forward with predictions, because the agent can make predictions with the correct time and scale up to this point.

Thanks to that, our disaster awareness is also improving.

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But I also have complaints.

This is a method for expressing quantitative values of disasters.

Few people understand the relationship between magnitude and seismic intensity, and earthquakes are difficult to predict, so I think this is not serious problem.

The problem is for typhoon information.

In particular, I think there are two problems.

- Expressing precipitation in millimeters

- Expressing wind speed in metric seconds

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For example,

- not "rainfall of 1000 millimeters per hour", but "One meter water column falls within a radius of dozens of kilometers per hour."

- not "maximum instantaneous wind speed of 50 meters", but "wind instantaneously blows at a speed of 180 km/h".

It's easier to understand that "A blown umbrella flies at a speed of passing a 25-meter pool in 0.5 seconds"

If such a messy amount of water falls all at once, any town can not drain away.

Anyone knows that going out outdoors where things fly at 180 km/h is a suicide act.

In short, how to convey the fear of a disaster is not concrete without being explained in the examples of daily life.

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It's strange for me why the agencies don't tell us why our life become dangerous.

I don't think people of the Japan Meteorological Agency and the media should be aware of this.

There may be a reason. For example, “Don't make people scared more than necessary”.

However, they are calling for "Start action to save your life".

It seems very unreasonable for me not to give the reason.

(Continuation from yesterday)

I feel like that's a title that might get you in trouble with the ordinance. As a Stein's Gate geek, I'm proud to recommend this time travel comic to you.

Unlike "multi-world interpretation theory" such as "another world story", this is a story that goes back in time on the same time axis.

It's a classic theme of "looks like a kid, however, the brain like an adult", but it's a simple, exhilarating book to read (two books total).

I'm also curious as to why the author uses "Minkowski space" for this theoretical interpretation of time retrogression.

I am reading and studying it with the following book.

Minkowski Geometry-Kaijo Junior and Senior High School

Maybe,

"Events in the spatial domain beyond the speed of light, occur at the same time, or even before, by moving to a coordinate system that moves at an appropriate speed"

I wonder if the "spatial realm beyond the speed of light" part is explained by the phenomenon of "soul mixing". Anyway, I am enjoying it.

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For me, I'd like to read a comic that takes the story a step further, even more so.

Even a child who "looks like a kid, however, the brain like an adult", the fact of the horrendous children's bullying will make her/him feel nervous.

or

The new normal that the world has acquired (absolute denial of violence, para-harassment, penalization of sexual harassment, understanding of same-sex marriage, etc.)

will be overturned by the common sense of the past world, and

the child will be re-created to say "Corporal punishment is a teacher's love"

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NOT "a guy from the future judging the past from a superior perspective"

BUT "the guy from the future, "brainwashed" with the wisdom of the past"

I would also like to read such a reactionary (x progressive), ironic, unpleasant, time travel story.

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I think there is a certain demand group.

- A politician who can't write a single logical column, but just has a loud voice

- Parents and teachers who profess that "corporal punishment is a necessary evil"

- A person who insists on patriotism education, such as saying "love" the "service provider" whose name is "Japan"

I'm sure they will like it.

I once told this story to a friend (a woman) when I was in college.

"I've never been kind to others, and I don't intend to be, so I don't think I'm in a position where I can expect to be treated kindly"

"I always think of myself cowering by a telephone pole in a city late at night in winter, dying with no one to talk to -- like a bag of garbage"

The only thing I vow is that I will never begrudge anyone for not helping me when the time comes.

"I think that's a balanced way for me to die."

"However, I'm thinking that 'cold' is fine, but I'd be happy if my sense of pain, such as 'intense pain' or 'suffering,' is numbed.

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Later, I heard that she had told her parents about it -- I wanted her not to tell about the story to others.

However, her parents said,

"A fine young man"

They had come to appreciate me a lot.

Normally, I would think that I would be evaluated as a 'creepy guy' and told to stop associating with me.

Maybe there are a lot of people who think like me.

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So, in my opinion, those who say "I want to die, but I can't" or "I want to be executed" are "not prepared enough".

In addition, it is 'not enough study'.

I do not broadcast information on social networking sites, nor do I post on message boards.

I only write my opinions on my blog and in my serial columns.

So, if there is a post on the board with the same name as mine, it is a different person with the same name -- which I think is a pretty rare case.

To begin with, "Ebata" as a last name, is not so many, therefore I had been involved in such an accident.

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There are some methods to distinguish me with the person with the same name.

(1)My comments are long.

If you find a comment with one word or one phrase, it is not mine.

(2)My comments are argumentative.

I have an obsession with 'if I can't argue logically, I will lose'.

(3)My counter-comments are twisted.

I never use dirty words directly.

I have an (useless) paranoia with 'I will be thought to be stupid(igrorand)'.

Like the above, if you find the comments in a (useless and redundant) way, they are mine.

It's common for people to be hurt by things I don't know, and I try to be careful, especially since I do a lot of writing.

Of course, I am sure there are some oversights.

Still, I try to do my background research rather than unthinkingly following public rumors.

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I watched the drama "What You Ate Yesterday" with my wife.

Me: "'Gay' is the correct term, don't use 'Homo.'

Wife: "Is there a difference?"

I talked to her about how both words refer to homosexuals, but "gay" has a more positive connotation and is more widely used, and "homo," by contrast, can sound discriminatory in some cases -- and so on.

Incidentally, the term "gay" is widely accepted and used with positive connotations within the LGBTQ+ community and in general, and in recent years has also been used to refer to female homosexuals.

Me: "I think "gay" sounds more discriminatory because of the dull sound.

Wife: "I have a strong image of a 'gay bar.'"

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Wife: "What did you say about someone who has no sexual interest?"

Me: "I think it was 'assex'."

Wife: "... I feel a little different."

Me: "Hmm. I'll look into it."

Wife: "On the other hand, Being attracted to both men and women is bisexual, right?

Me: "Yes, but I think the "by" in "bisexual" comes from "Bio," not "By." I'll look into this, too.

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Here is the LINE message I just sent to my wife.

- The adjective "asexual" for a person who has no sexual interest.

- Bisexuality is a gender identity in which one is attracted to both men and women. Bisexual" is spelled Bisexual. The "bi-" in "bisexual" is a prefix of Latin origin, meaning "two" or "double" in English.

- bio is an abbreviation for biological and does not seem related to bisexual.