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2019-08-24 "This is not "real me", who pretend to like what I don't like" [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

Since then, I have always lived paying attention to "Whether I'm conscious, I'm always an perpetrator" and "What type of perpetrator I am now".

In other words, instead of "original sin(*)" in Christianity, we came up with the concept of "current sin (sin for ongoing forms of perpetrator)”.

(*)The idea that the first humans, Adam and Eve, were committed against God and we inherit it at the DNA level

Well then, this concept of my "current sin" has been changing to

"Dont't being an unconscious perpetrator"

"If I have to be an perpetrator, I will be the perpetrator "intentionally" and "plannedly" with definite malicious intentions from the beginning.

Let's talk this story to another opportunity.

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Let's go back.

When I was a junior school student, I collected stamps and ancient coins, though I was not interested in them at all.

That was the start point.

What I wanted to say is

Our "favorites" are not made by ourselves,

We just take in something made in the outside world.

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"We can't create our own "favorites""

This idea will make you easier.

In addition, there will be various benefits if we think that "I also like what many people like”.

For example, escaping from bully and ostracism.

Moreover

"This is not "real me", who pretend to like what I don't like"

Let's stop such masochism.

"Real me" ----- Nobody can find it anywhere(*).

(*)"I am both me and my environment" (Ortega, Reflection on Don Quixote)