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2020-10-07 But even when I still "ignore" them -- I continue to "shut up" with a sense of "guilt". [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

However, there are two ways to "ignore" it.

Either (1) keep quiet or (2) make the person who is suffering from the pain suffer even more, painfully.

I'm proud to say that if I'm going to "ignore" it, I'm going to continue to be (1) at least.

For example, I try not to choose (2) on the grounds that I am beholden to an elderly authority figure.

"Women don't mind lying -- in sexual assault cases"

Such a line would be (2), I believe.

Well, it's possible to say these lines in the "groove".

I think it's possible at an izakaya or a girls meeting. However, it's out of the question.

"Special places, such as public, taxpayer-funded venues for political meetings and workshops"

But such people are rare. Unless they are hopelessly low and insane.

Anyone who says lines like that in the "Victims of Sexual Assault" thread, is no longer a human being.

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Well, in my columns, I've been doing a lot of self-deprecation and self-criticism of engineers.

I don't care of writing phrases that flatter my readers, and I am careful to express myself in order to avoid pressure from the power side.

I don't write for "social justice", I write for "my (my) amusement", and I want to keep writing.

To do that, I sometimes deliberately ignore the most vulnerable people in society. Because some things are out of my control, and some things are not good for me.

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But even when I still "ignore" them -- I continue to "shut up" with a sense of "guilt".

I take care not to "make those who are in pain suffer more and more pain and suffering"

So I'm grateful that my rude friends and unassuming family members are keeping an eye on me.