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2020-08-28 "stupid child who has been dancing on the hands of adults and doesn't even know it" [長年日記]

This is my impression after watching episode 8 of "My Youth Romantic Comedy is Wrong,As I Expected -- Final"

Actually, this episode has shocked me the most, so far.

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When I was a teenager, I was a student council member and a member of the school festival committee.

In order to get the various projects passed, I was planning many things behind the scenes, using the authority of the student council president and the chairman of the executive committee.

I think I've done some "diggint route root" and "behind-the-scenes maneuvering" that didn't go through regular channels if it was to get the project through.

And, well, this character of mine (narrow, shallow, and cowardly) has not been fixed to this day.

By the way, my core values are not "real" or "righteous" but "complete" -- but, well, I'll talk about that soon.

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After watching this episode 8, about "diggint route root" and "behind-the-scenes maneuvering" I had done when I was a teenager,

At the time, the adults supervising me had

"seen them all"

I doubt they had thought

"I know what he (Ebata) is doing, but if we leave him alone, he'll lift the project to that level and get it done."

"If things get really bad, we can destroy the project if we destroy him alone"

Didn't my "diggint route root" and "behind-the-scenes maneuvering" continue to be overlooked?

Didn't I feel good about it, and I was alone in my euphoria at being able to "complete" it?

Now that I think about it, I think there were a few examples of that.

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My teenagers may bave been just a

"stupid child who has been dancing on the hands of adults and doesn't even know it"

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After watching the episode 8, "I just found something I didn't like".