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2020-06-26 I'm a pretty "lousy person", whenever I'm criticized I feel uncomfortable and immediately go into combat mode even if the criticism is right. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

My basic stance is "If you get hit, hit back", "I will take on the enemies of Edo, not only in Nagasaki, but anywhere in the world", and "I will shoot him in the back after he shoots me in the back".

This lousy policy may seem to only lead to an "endless chain of retaliation," but it's actually quite a bit of "restraint on myself" as well.

(1) There must be more than a few people who think like me.

(2) If I criticize people in a way that causes resentment, I don't know where I am going to get retribution.

(3) Therefore, I should explore the circumstances and social conventions of the time and the mental picture of the other person, as much as I can. criticize people with the utmost care, logically and with evidence (numbers, etc.).

In other words, I can create motivation to be a good (and cunning) critic by using the "demon" in you well.

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I'm a pretty "lousy person", whenever I'm criticized I feel uncomfortable and immediately go into combat mode even if the criticism is right.

However, there is something to be gained by getting to the bottom of that "minimum".

I'm not going to force myself to be a good person -- To begin with, I can't make the effort like that.

I will continue to be a clever, logical, cool "lousy person" and continue to "shoot the guy in the back who shot me in the back some".