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2019-10-10 - I can't rest assured. [長年日記]

(Continuation from yesterday)

I realize that I am not able to enjoy an extraordinary life, even while at work, is a "unhappiness".

However, I am terribly "scary" that something unexpected happens in such extraordinary time.

I know the fact that "failure is a property".

Still, "failure" is basically "painful".

Even if it was a valuable asset in the past, it is something that I do not want to receive as much as possible in the future. That is "failure".

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If there is an adjective that expresses the above "scary" and "pain" together, it would be "coward".

- Even as if I perform possible advance simulations,

- Even as if I prepare all the measures you can come up with,

- I can't rest assured.

Indeed, I can say that it is an excellent sample of "coward".

How much "coward" I am,

- In domestic business trips, I assume "two places" of personal accidents that occurr on the route to the destination.

- In overseas business trips, after I arrive at the site, I will actually walk on foot to the meeting venue of the next day.

Indeed, the reason why I hate "personal accident" is a natural enemy against "coward".

(To be continued)