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Somehow, my intuition told me it was a "hit," and I started watching it with my wife.

"Rokubei of the Kuro-Shoin room"

My wife got off after the first episode (6 in all). Still, I was watching this content while investigating the video distribution server -- and I finished watching all the episodes until 4:00 in the morning.

I didn't feel much at the time, but the next morning, in my futon, I remembered my late father, and tears began to flow.

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As far as I know, my father ended his life without a single moment of weakness in front of me -- the exact opposite of me.

On the other hand, as you know, I am a person who keeps saying "ouch," "painful," "suffering," and "I can't do it," and continues to disclose them without any shame or shame.

This way of living that matches my inner and outer life is probably right from the perspective of protecting my mind and body.

However, my father, who remained silent without ever revealing any such thing -- at least to me, he said to me and conveyed to me a lot -- now seems to me that he did.

My father is dead, but at least he lives on in me' -- lines like that I can say, unabashedly, but with conviction.

Well, I think that when I die, then my father will die too, in the true sense of the word.

And, that's fine.

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I wrote the following in my diary,

"However, in my life, I have come to know that "honesty" is never inferior to "not honesty."

My father passed away, leaving me with this.

And then it occurred to me,

When I thought, 'Will I be able to leave something like this to someone else like my father did--'

I now chuckle to myself, 'Probably not.'

"24 Billion Kilometers from Earth, Voyager 1 System Recovery Successful, Receives First Decipherable Data in Five Months."

Not many people may be moved to tears when they read an article called

However, I almost cried.

"Voyager" -- this one word is enough to make me stop thinking.

■"VOYAGER - Tombstone without Date" used in "Farewell Jupiter"

■A chance encounter with the protagonist of "Cosmonaut" in "5 Centimeters per Second".

"It really must be an unimaginably lonely journey."

"Just to go on and on through the real darkness, rarely encountering even a single hydrogen atom, just with the single desire to get closer to the secrets of the world that I believe must lie in the abyss."

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The response time for a "ping" to the remote host on the network is less than one second at most.

In comparison, the response time to Voyager 1 is 45 hours (162,000 seconds).

'Since there was no way to repair this chip, the team moved the stored codes to another location in the system's memory. Although they could not find a compartment to store all the codes, they could break them into sections and store each in a separate location in the flight data system.'

"Really!?"

This operation is unimaginable to bypass the capillaries of a patient's brain, 24 billion kilometers away, with his eyes closed, checking each one of its conditions every 45 hours.

Moreover, the operation was in an extreme environment with the highest level of risk. If they mistakenly cut the communication link by a few bits per second, the communication with Voyager 1 would be lost forever.

How can I describe the "greatness" of this "feat" and "miracle" that I cannot even begin to describe?

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Since I can't express in words the 'awesomeness' of these technicians, I'll hit others.

Who writes books like "How to Call UFOs," who believes in them, and who tries them?

What you believe is, of course, up to you.

But for the mind-boggling efforts and accomplishments of the engineers who managed to 'move the code in memory' and 'reboot it' in '45 hours of response time' to 'space exploration 4.5 billion kilometers away', I would like to say a few words,

"What can you tell them about what you do?"

The other day, my second daughter told me that there is "intellectual property (IPR) exploitation" in the name of job interviews.

The subject of the interview was to come up with "the next new business for our company."

This topic is the most challenging task for any company, as it is a constant struggle, thinking, thinking, failing, redoing, thinking again, and so on.

The company's "nastiness" (or "meanness," "vileness," or "horror") lies in the fact that it "makes job hunters think" about this most challenging task.

"What would you call it if you didn't call it "IP exploitation"?"

To be clear, I get mad with this company.

I thought, "Should I publish that company's name on my blog? But it would be meaningless if my second daughter was disadvantaged.

This issue seems like a good thing to do, slowly and methodically, after the second daughter's job search is complete.

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And, well, my second daughter asked me to help her out with the story.

After all, I am "Ozenji's patent specification manufacturing equipment.

I once had a guy who gave me a job because "other people were busy."

'Die, you idiot,' I said, still angry.

In this way, it has the same meaning as 'I look bored.

The only option for a request from someone like this is to 'refuse,' but that may not be possible in the case of business.

Still, I will not forget the guy with the worst possible impression.

This level of consideration comes with age -- but some people can't do it forever.

For example, "I (Ebata).

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My words and actions have hurt many people (including my blog and columns).

I have "talked too much" about too many things to think I am the exception.

How not to hurt people, are, I think,?

To remain silent, not speak, and not reveal one's true feelings.

However, it is much more difficult to do.

We should remember that 'talking about something' is synonymous with 'hurting someone.

If you want to remain a "good guy," shut your mouth.

Incidentally, the reverse phase of the above phrase is,

"Talking will always make you a "bad person.""

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By the way, regarding the above "because others are busy," whatever the truth of that, the phrase to use in this case is,

'There is no one else I can turn to but you, Ebata-san, on this matter!

Again, "whatever the truth may be."

I watched "Re-emerging from Rocket Failure: 348 Days of Engineers."

The severe expressions on the engineers' faces made my clenched cup tremble.

Even without the production of "Project X," the engineers onsite are enough to "shake their heart.

I don't need any staging.

I don't even need music.

I don't need cool lines or quotes like in "Professional: The Way of Work."

As it is, I think something is inspiring in this world.

I have a master's in electrical engineering, so I could understand the part about the electrical system that was considered the cause of the previous failure.

The fact that such content may have been one of the reasons for the "shaking of my heart.

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The scale and duration are different, but when I also obtained effects that exceeded my expectations during the experiment,

"It made me want to clench my fists and roar joyfully."

There are times - rare, really - I feel like the above.

Sometimes, engineers are not in love, money, status, or power but are just 'happy with the experiment's results.

However, I don't have any friends to hug or pat each other on the shoulder and rejoice with, so all I can do is "run around the room," shouting, "Hyah-hoo!

It's a shame.

I am a scary person from the outside.

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The following is an excerpt from the column.

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But finally, on October 29 (about 30 minutes ago), I turned a stepper motor with an EtherCAT enslaved person!

I was so happy that I was jumping around the house, but no one in the Ebata family could share this joy.

"If you're happy, I'm happy," my lovely wife said, not stopping to wash the dishes, whose aphorisms is?

" What does it matter if the litmus test paper turns blue or red?"

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For the first time in a long time, I was watching YouTube.

As for alcohol, I have talked about it again and again, but if I (Ebata) were to list the disadvantages and advantages, it would be something like this.

■Disadvantages of Ebata's quitting drinking alcohol

- I despair (and still despair) that I will never be able to enjoy alcohol.

- I can only talk about "sake" in my memories.

- I need Sleeping pills and stabilizers on a steady basis.

- I hated drinking even more.

- My consumption of non-alcoholic beer has increased

■Advantages of Ebata's quitting drinking alcohol

- Lost weight.

- Shoulders are no longer stiff.

- I'm able to stand my ground at work.

- My naps are now regular.

- No more warnings from the human health inspectors.

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My wife asks me if I can't 'control alcohol' by saying I only drink on weekends or at the end of the year.

However, I am too clumsy to perform such "analog control" well. Therefore, I have no choice but to use digital control.

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The WHO may be correct in its assertion that "alcohol is the best of all medicines" is a false theory, and "alcohol is 100% poison" is the true theory.

However, even if alcohol is an addictive drug like morphine, methamphetamine, or narcotics, it is legal if the law allows it.

I don't criticize smokers as long as they don't spread stale air.

In addition, if, on the contrary, alcohol and tobacco have the effect of shortening life expectancy and curbing social security costs, this would even be welcome.

Taxes on alcohol and tobacco are delicious from a state fiscal perspective.

I used to make my alcohol, so I know the cost of alcohol and have a rough understanding of tobacco.

I was pretty shocked when I found out that beer can be made for about the price of tap water +/- (by the way, the statute of limitations has already passed on the contents of this column).

To me, both alcohol and cigarettes seem to be "state-sponsored psychic sales" from the perspective of "continuing to pay taxes while destroying one's own body" -- but still, they are legal.

Here is a story by a tobacco company about the effect of reduced pensions due to the premature death of smokers.

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Thanks to the efforts of WHO and various governments, the smoking rate is decreasing year by year.

(I feel it has not decreased as much as I had hoped.)

The government's next target is probably "alcohol".

I am a college student and have never seen a college student smoking on campus (true).

I believe that if the increase in social security costs caused by alcohol becomes quantitatively precise, the government will turn to a "prohibition campaign" with the very survival of the nation at stake.

Yesterday, I was carrying a travel carry-on bag stuffed with experimental equipment, which had become like a lump of iron

I thought that if I made a mistake in carrying the equipment, I would get "strained back in one shot," so I used equipment for people with disabilities & seniors (elevators and escalators) for all of my transportation.

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" I have not progressed one millimeter since my twenties."

I was almost in tears.

In my vision of the future, I had envisioned "a dainty senior who orders his younger subordinates to do this kind of work, and I am dressed in a slightly more formal dress and shoes, having a nice conversation with customers" -- but the result was "just senior."

"Boys, don't be ambitious. It's going to be hard later."

I am going to Hokkaido University next month and would like to shout this phrase in front of the Clark statue.

(Well, I probably won't do it. I'm afraid I'll get in trouble with the company and the university.)

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Yesterday, I talked with my daughter, who drove me to the train station.

Daughter: "You are as hard as ever. The other day, my mom and I talked about how when you collapse, we might say, 'We knew it was going to happen,' before we get surprised."

Me: "I think I am now in the speculation phase of 'when' and 'where' I will collapse."

Daughter: "If you know that much..."

Me: "But I can't reach Grandpa's (my late father) "hard" anymore. When I was helping my father with his work, it was so hard that I, as a junior high school student, thought, 'I might die.'"

Daughter: "Grandpa is out of scope. We can't hold him to that standard.

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A year ago, my team leader stopped speaking during a remote meeting.

They thought, 'It's probably a communication failure or a device malfunction,' but the next day, we found out that he had passed away, and the team was in a panic (I was not at that meeting).

He also helped me on the back end when I was going through a tough time (during the field demonstration), so I was pretty shocked then.

It was not until six months later that I could ask one of the people involved about the incident specifically. It was such a shock to me.

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However, despite this life-changing impact, I have not been able to make any significant changes to my lifestyle.

I am aware that I am such a "fool.

However, I also realize that "changing oneself" is so tricky.

As noted here,

For a while, "Just Google Kanji characters. Use a calculator for calculations. There is no need to study at school,' the post/video of a child who claimed that he did not need to study at school became a hot topic.

I had hoped to see the results of this "social experiment" with himself as the subject, but it appears he has "stepped down" from it.

I am very disappointed.

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I am not in a position to comment on this in any way, though, since one's life is one's own decision,

"I would have liked to know the results of this experiment as someone else's business, unrelated to my own."

I thought that.

After all, I did not dare to put my daughter in this experiment.

Therefore, I was very grateful to have someone unrelated to me do those things for me.

Hence, it is still disappointing.

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I don't care what other people do when they have nothing to do with me.

People who say something about the behavior of children who are strangers, whether they agree, disagree, praise, or criticize, are more 'bored' than 'loving.

I'm not so unsophisticated as to meddle in other people's lives.

After all, I have the mindset of "I just keep observing people jumping off the platform.

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? EE Times Japan編集部 (@eetimes_jp) July 19, 2016

I do stop "flowing stroller," though.

I watched "Last Days Sakamoto Ryuichi Sakamoto's Last Days."

In my reflection, I realized that

"I only have a little over ten years left."

Even if I can live a little longer, "10 years left" is a very realistic figure if I include various disabilities (including cognitive disabilities).

Nevertheless, like Ryuichi Sakamoto, I have no accomplishments to leave behind for posterity, nor do I have life lessons to share with my future colleagues.

I still wonder if this is how I would sum up my life.

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I do not believe that, for one millimeter, "history" will create the next better generation.

What I have learned from history,

(1) We fail to apply the lessons of our predecessors.

(2) We make the same mistakes over and over again.

(3) We cannot learn from anything but our failures.

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The only thing I can leave behind is many failures?the so-called "black history."

The significance of this "black history" is to "comfort" or "lick each other's wounds" by saying, "In the end, you and I are just human beings of this level, so you should live your lives without overreacting.

Well, I think I can do that much.

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Therefore, I will actively disclose my "black history" frequently.

Today, as the first installment, I disclose the following,

"I bought a book called 'Exercises for growing taller and taller,' which came with Shonen Jump magazine.

It was a costly purchase for me, a junior high school student at the time, but I bought it.

So I imitated the strange dance-like gymnastics diagrams and continued for about two weeks, but then I got bored.

I realized, "Can I grow taller by doing gymnastics?

These kinds of dubious booklets and tools use two approaches to fool the dim-witted teenagers.

(1) "Surprised comments"

They list many "testimonials" from successful people whose sources are unknown, which will attract buyers.

However, we do not know if this alleged "successful" person exists.

(2) "Recommendation comments from university professors."

Add a comment that a professor at a university (sometimes the name of a foreign university), which may or may not exist, recommends it.

To begin with, it is unclear whether the professor exists (usually accompanied by a photo of a senior citizen in a suit).

Of course, now I would do all sorts of investigations, targeting, and retaliation (involving the government and judiciary, if poorly done), but teenagers are an essential buying group, the so-called "suckers," in that they do not and cannot know such things.

I will not say, 'Don't be fooled by this advertising.

On the contrary, I say, 'Of course, they will be fooled,' I even think it's better that way.

I believe teenagers must develop "distrust" and "hatred" toward society and adults through this kind of process.

It is a very inexpensive tuition for training by evil men and women and scams before you become an adult.

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So, although I can't match Ryuichi Sakamoto's feat of "changing the world with music," and in fact, my vector is entirely different,

I want to start my contribution to the world by "licking my wounds with black history.

The issue of whether "same-day notice" of executions violates the Constitution was dismissed in a recent court decision (now in the first instance).

Regardless of the merits of this trial or the death penalty, I believe that one of the reasons why the death penalty is an "extreme punishment" is because of this "non-disclosure of the date of notification.

Of course, even with "disclosure," extreme punishment is extreme punishment.

For example, if someone said to me, 'You (Ebata) are confirmed to die on April 17, 2034, 10 years from today, and this is inevitable,' I don't know whether I would think this was a good thing or an unnecessary thing to say.

But the discretion to extend that "10 years later" with effort or shorten it with despair -- is something the death penalty does not have.

I think that the death penalty is an extreme punishment in that it deprives a person of the right to choose their way of death.

Aside from that.

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The death penalty is a punishment that we "support" (in principle) after considering our personal views on the whole, including historical background and crime deterrence.

I believe that it is only a matter of time before same-sex marriages are officially recognized (although I think it is wild to put them in the same category).

We can confirm that the judiciary's rulings are changing gradually from year to year.

However, I believe that, as a general rule, public sentiment is "in favor of the death penalty.

As far as I know, there are few court cases on the issue of "the death penalty is unconstitutional."

The issue is also generally "cruelty or not.

This ruling is the only court case I know of (that I am aware of) fighting the "system" itself. (Please let me know if there are any precedents I am missing.)

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However, we have a "duty" to check whether this system works well.

Namely,

"witnessing an execution."

We should apply the same framework as the "jury system" (*) to the "system of witnessing executions.

(*)Notification is made based on a list drawn up by lottery from among the voters, and a person cannot refuse to be a judge without cause.

Of course, we should not install this system easily; if it does, we will have to discuss it in depth.

If we are to make an administrative argument of principle, it is extraordinary that there is no "system of witnessing executions."

The above is because this falls under the "disclosure of administrative processing."

If mandatory participation is "too much to ask," then the program should be operated as an application system for those who wish to participate.

(It would be a significant incident if a person who participates in the program caused an accident (including suicide) due to fear of being forced to participate.)

As for the application system, it is evident that it requires a rigorous examination (tests such as whether the historical background and judicial or administrative handling protocols regarding the death penalty are understood).

In addition, as a matter of human rights, permission for disclosure/non-disclosure by the person executed would naturally be required.

To consider this further, does the bereaved family of a crime victim have the right to be present without the permission of the person executed? And so on, need to be considered.

(Now that you mention it, I had overlooked this point of view. For example, what happens to the family register and certificate of residence after a definite death sentence, and other relatively trivial matters (and what happens if a request for a retrial overturns the sentence? and so on))

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By the way, I will apply to this program as soon as it starts.

I am aware that I am maintaining this society by my own "bloody hands" -- and I affirm that.

Therefore, I believe that I am obligated to watch my "bloody hand" with my own eyes, not as an abstraction but as a concrete object.